Back to Work!

Hi Everyone!

Today was my first day back to work after more than 6 weeks off. Wow, it is good to be back! I feel like a productive member of society again (well, at least somewhat!). I won't lie though, it was really nice to have the time off to recuperate and go to the many doctors' appointments. It was so odd, though, not to get up and head off to work each morning. I've never "not worked". I took advantage of the time off by catching up with family and friends and even played some Mario on Nintendo (yes, the old original one). My niece beat me every time, of course, but it was still fun.

How am I feeling? Right now I feel great, with very little side effects. There are times when I'm achy or extra tired, but for the most part I do whatever I want. My taste buds have changed somewhat. Something that sounded so good to me last week makes me cringe right now. I do best with cold foods, especially fruit.

How am I doing overall? Well, I do have my "pity party" moments. Like this past weekend at a time when I had no energy... I was thinking how crazy this whole process is. I felt fine before I was diagnosed, and even before chemo. But here I am, allowing all these chemicals to enter my body and make me potentially feel awful and lose my hair. It doesn't seem to make sense. And it's all so that I won't get sick later. So why doesn't everyone just go through chemo so NO ONE has to deal with cancer later in life, right? Poor me, I'm going through chemo...

The fact is, it's not "poor me". I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has plans for me that are so much bigger than my plans. And I know that He loves me more than anyone on this earth ever could or will. So, it's ok. I'll get through this and then on to another challenge. I won't promise never to complain, but at the end of the day, I know God's got me in the palm of His hand. That's good enough for me.

Hugs and kisses,
Cheryl